The strive for perfection can be destructive.
I constantly find myself striving to be perfect in the daily situations I encounter: I want to be the strongest and fastest in the weight room, the best on the volleyball court, the prettiest, the smartest, the kindness – I could go on forever.
When I come in last place on a sprint or get the lowest grade on a test, I feel sad and defeated. I’m allowing my mind to think that anyone but God’s opinion matters. I’m allowing my own desire to seek perfection to trump my desire for God and His perfect love.
There is always going to be someone stronger and faster than you, no matter how hard you work. You’re always going to make a mistake in volleyball, that’s the sport. There is always going to be someone better looking than you and someone who aces every test.
We can’t feel discouraged because we are not the best at everything. God created us with our own unique talents. Some are more talented athletically and some aesthetically, but we are all seen equal in our Father’s eyes, and that is all that matters.
“If you sought perfection, I’d die trying to reach it. But, this broken heart is all you want.” –Heart Like Heaven, Hillsong
Not only do I strive for perfection in my daily activities, but I am constantly striving for perfection in future endeavors. When things don’t go as planned, I am disappointed. When I set goals and deadlines and I don’t achieve them, I feel worthless.
Yes it is okay to set these goals, but it is important to keep in mind that we are not going to win every race – nor are we expected to. Knowing that our God still loves us even when we do not reach these goals is the most comforting thing I can imagine.
We must rest in knowing that He has a plan for us and we are called to trust in this plan. For me this means I should no longer spend time focusing on being perfect and worrying about the future. Instead, I should focus on my fellowship with the Lord. I am confident and content in the Lord’s plans when I am constantly in His presence.
I am so blessed to have a God who does not expect or even want perfection from me.
Seek a perfect God, not a perfect life.